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Embracing Change: My Journey to Reconnecting with Joy and Authenticity

Hey Friends!

Hello, my beautiful Life Unscripted fam! Over the weekend, I celebrated my 52nd birthday, and I’m so grateful for all the love and celebration from you. As I embarked on this new chapter, I felt an overwhelming urge to shake things up—literally. I moved my living room furniture around and began decluttering my home. It might seem like a simple act, but for me, it was a significant step in reconnecting with my true self.

If you haven’t heard me mention it before, I am a Manifesting Generator, one of the five energy types in the Human Design system. If you’re unfamiliar with it, I highly recommend looking it up—you’ll find tons of resources on YouTube and Substack. Understanding my energy type has been a game-changer for me, especially as I’ve been feeling a bit out of sorts lately.

Reconnecting with My Manifesting Generator Energy

Feeling disconnected led me back to practices that have always grounded me, like guided meditations and revisiting the wealth of knowledge I’ve gathered about being a Manifesting Generator. Years ago, I even offered readings for Manifesting Generators, helping them understand how to create content in alignment with their unique energy. Revisiting this information has been like reconnecting with an old friend—comforting and enlightening.

Understanding my Human Design has always been about more than just knowing myself; it’s about embracing the truth that I’m not meant to be boxed in. I’m a trailblazer, here to show others what doesn’t work and how to show up authentically. Yet, despite knowing this, I’ve struggled with fully embracing this identity in my business. I’ve often found myself trying to fit into molds that simply weren’t designed for me, which left me feeling unfulfilled.

Rediscovering Joy in the Simple Things

A few days ago, I found myself excitedly rearranging my living room. I even dug into my storage closet, playing around with some home decor items I hadn’t touched in ages. This may seem mundane, but it was an act of joy and self-expression. My home is my sanctuary, and making it a space that feels right to me is incredibly important.

Initially, I hesitated to share this with you. I questioned whether something as trivial as moving furniture around was worth talking about. But then, I realized that this is exactly what Life Unscripted is all about—sharing the real, sometimes unremarkable moments that make up our lives. It’s in these moments that I often find the most profound lessons.

Permission to Live Unscripted

I recently watched a YouTube video by Human Design with Ebony, a fellow Manifesting Generator, and something she said deeply resonated with me. She emphasized that Manifesting Generators are natural teachers; we don’t just do things for the sake of doing them—we share to inspire, to teach, and to offer something valuable to others.

This was a lightbulb moment for me. I realized that I’ve been struggling to share my life because I didn’t think it was “helpful” enough. But in reality, the simple act of rearranging my living room, of following what feels good, is exactly the kind of thing that can offer inspiration to someone else. It’s about moving towards what feels right, what brings joy, and giving ourselves permission to live unscripted.

Embracing My Feminine Energy

Another revelation I’ve had recently is the importance of balancing my masculine and feminine energies. As a single parent with a full-time job, I’ve spent a lot of time in a “doing, doing, doing” mode—a very masculine energy. But I’ve been craving more of the feminine—more receiving, more being. This imbalance is likely why I’ve been feeling out of sorts.

The pressure to grow my business, especially during uncertain times at work, pushed me into overdrive. I was operating on pure masculine energy, trying to create a safety net in case of layoffs. But this approach left me burnt out and disconnected from what truly makes me feel alive.

Now, I’m consciously shifting back to a state of being. I’m allowing myself to be guided by what feels good, whether it’s rearranging furniture, writing this blog post, or simply going to bed early. It’s a return to my core, where joy and fulfillment reside. Listen to one of my activations for reconnecting with my how I want to be in this world.

What Does Living Unscripted Look Like?

So, what does “share things, get paid, live free” look like in practice? For me, it’s about sharing the guided meditations I love, offering mini-courses, and diving deep into what it means to be a Manifesting Generator. It’s about sharing the seemingly mundane moments, like moving my living room furniture, that bring joy and teach valuable lessons.

I’m excited to continue this journey with you, to share all the things going on in my life—no matter how uninteresting they might seem at first glance. Because I’ve realized that these moments are where the magic happens.

Thank you for being here with me, for reading, and for supporting this unscripted life I’m creating. Here’s to living unscripted, embracing joy, and finding freedom in every moment.

If anything resonated with you, I’d love to hear about it. Leave a comment, share your thoughts, or ask any questions. Let’s keep this conversation going—because living unscripted is a journey best shared.

Here’s to living a life unscripted.