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From Tiptoeing to Leaping: How I’m Learning to Commit to My Dreams

Hey Friends!

As I’ve been diving deeper into creating goals based on my feelings, I’ve noticed a recurring theme—fear. Fear around saying, “This is what I want, and I’m going to jump in.” When I reflect on where this mindset has taken me so far, if I’m honest, it hasn’t been as far as I’d like.

But here’s the thing—I’ve often denied myself the time and space to move forward with what I truly want because I’ve consistently sidelined myself with thoughts about “the how.”

What I mean by that is this: I start off strong with a clear vision of what I want, feeling ready to dive in. But then I get caught up in thoughts like:

  • Is this really working?

  • I should be further along by now.

  • Maybe I should try something else.

  • This isn’t working.

It’s easy for me to jump in and take action, but it hasn’t always been easy to stick with it.

There’s a saying that goes something like, “Make decisions quickly and change your mind slowly.” I’ve got the quick decisions part down, but the changing my mind slowly? That’s where I struggle.

Here’s where I think part of the problem lies: I haven’t fully accepted that as a Manifesting Generator (yes, I’ve been talking about that a lot lately), I have the right to change my mind. What that looks like in practice, I’m still figuring out.

So, I’m working on that. But I think this struggle is what’s leading me to this tiptoeing around my desires.

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For me, tiptoeing looks like having the feeling and the desire to lean fully into “this is how I want to do things now,” but not fully allowing myself to give a full-bodied Yesssssss!

Why is that?

Because of fear.

Fear of what?

Fear that I’m going to change my mind, as I often do, and that I still haven’t given myself permission to take action while working out the kinks of uncertainty like:

  • How do I make money from this?

  • Can I build this business and life in a way that’s sustainable with my love of change and my desire to live unscripted?

  • How can I help people who could benefit from what I have to say without seeming flaky or unable to commit, potentially turning them off because I seem untrustworthy?

This is why I’ve been so reluctant to stop tiptoeing around.

But as I connect with this part of myself—the part that recognizes the problem and makes the decision to move forward, even if I’m scared—I’m finding a little spark of joy rising from the depths of my gut. I’m realizing that I can create safety in my body to go all in. To stop tiptoeing around my desires and allow myself to be led by that little voice that says, “Close your eyes and fly, sweet girl.”

I know, I know, it might sound a little cra-cra, but I truly believe that stepping out even when you’re scared is a complete win. And the more you win, the more wins you create because you’re literally becoming a person who wins.

That just becomes your identity, and you get to move from that next-level identity that you’ve been craving. The truth is, that identity is created by moments like this.

Moments where you recognize you’re either going to have to commit or let go. Figuring out what comes next comes from taking action. It comes from just deciding, and as cliché as it may sound in the personal development world, deciding, and deciding again and again, is a skill. A skill that leads to the commitment I feel I’ve been lacking.

And it will actually help you create commitment to the right things. The things you’re truly meant to be committed to, instead of the things you think you should be committed to but really aren’t. You’ve just been basing that commitment on elements that aren’t truly aligned with you.

I don’t know about you, but I’m excited about cutting out the tiptoeing and seeing where it all leads.